Sunday, September 23, 2007

nearly 3 weeks of silence...

So we haven't talked in almost 3 weeks. I know that was what he wanted, but this is the longest we have EVER gone without talking...in almost 6 years...

...and I miss him...

...a lot.

So much has happened in these past weeks that I've wanted to call and tell him about, but can't.

I'm trying so hard to be ok about all of this...but it's really difficult sometimes.

And, I think he's seeing someone else. Already. (Even though he said they're just friends...I just have this feeling...call it women's intuition). It makes me so sad, and sick to my stomach. I feel really betrayed.

I just don't see how, after 6 years, you can walk away and not look back. I think about him everyday, and I wonder if he thinks about me at all...especially when he's with her...

I know that eventually it will get easier, or at least that's what everyone says, but it's hard to imagine.

He was my best friend...

2 comments:

emily said...

1. He does.
2. I'm so sorry.
3. It's gotta be easy for a hottie like you to get a date. Show him he's not the only one with friends. And maybe you'll actually have a good time.

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to remind you of how beautiful you are both inside and out and that you deserve someone who cna see that too....